Monday, December 18, 2006
gratitude
"We meet different people in our life for a cause..."
it's been a while since i wrote a blog... i've benn so busy these days that i haven't really checked on my accounts... well nevermind about that... my life has never been great lately these days even though it was busy as hell.. it was fun!! helping people(on their studies) has never been enough especially when they are your friends... receiving a smile that comes from their heart is the total reliever of the stress i experience in teaching them... it makes all your stress and headache go out...
lately, it wasn't all helping and explaining i did... it was more of a bonding to us (me and my guys in CSB)... we went to different places just before the finals... it was my own way of showing how appreciative i am to have met these type of people... the type of people who made me realize that i should keep my feet on the ground because i am unaware of that... thanks to these guys, i realized what i am doing wrong in my life...
Friday, December 01, 2006
frienemy or not?
as i walked from intramuros to divisoria, i was bothered by my thoughts. am i having frienemies(friend-enemy)? or is it just my past experiences on "users" that i came to think that the people i am with are just using me. people say that prevention is better than cure.. yeah that is definitely true... but if i apply it now, then i would return back to my own self - an introvert.... well, i am done being an introvert and i have been happy. why make a fuzz about it? well i just want to see if these people around me are worth keeping or not.. if they are just worth using for the meantime, then i can definitely use/utilize them... all i want is proof whether or not these people are just using me, or they are what we really call "friends to keep"...
Thursday, October 19, 2006
a feeling so rare...
"It's so nice to wake up every morning all alone and not have to tell somebody you love them when you don't love them anymore..." well, ever felt this feeling? i did.. weird, but it felt so good. you feel the freedom of not having to recall/remember somebody else but only yourself. it's a great feeling. maybe few people can relate to me. but to those who can relate, it's a great feeling isn't it? especially when you realize that you already let go of the person who is dear to you... when you learn to forgive even if he/she didn't say sorry to you and you let go... a great feeling definitely and it's somehow a sign of a new beginning... i always say to myself and most especially to my friends that PRIDE IS A LONELY COMPANION( i got this from my sister, thanks to her).... and she is definitely right... using your useless pride and generating hate on the people who hurt you is never a good thing in any point of view... definitley not... why not just forgive? it wouldn't hurt you... it's just useless pride that's restricting you to forgive... i hope i opened the minds of people who is in this situation.. peace out!
stay away... if you dare come close....
Hurt...
Numb....
Yet still Standing....
I was too Stubborn...
I now know what being too kind is... i think it's time for a change.... all this time, i have been extra kind and extra good to people i consider to become part of my life... yet, they were blind with how i treated them... pure, unconditional and overflowing with everything you can possibly dream of(well it's up to you to believe)...
What's wrong with you people?!!
The dirt is way cleaner than you do... well, im not being bitter because never would i be a bit of it...
it's strange, i feel hurt for a while then the feeling i already gone after one sleep. i guess i'm just getting used to being played... because i'm so stupid to be loving the wrong people... nevertheless, i learn from them.. i benefit from them...
well, i'll just tell you this... come and play with my heart and i'll let karma play with your life as i watch your life get miserable every minute and every second... and i'm just gonna watch you like i'm watching the movie wherein i am the director....
ironically, my closest frineds treat me as priceless. they really know my worth. unfortunately, some people already know me as that yet they didn't make an effort to keep me. who losT? definitely not me as my friends also told me that it wasn't my loss.. but as a human, of course i naturally get hurt. enough of this nonsense talk...
on the other hand... it is really a fact that birds of the same feather really flock together... immature, insolent, senseless, illogical, feeble-minded and dependent people stay at the same place... they work well together.. they can relate to each other... i believe that i do not fit with them because i'm not one bit like them... call me arrogant and egoistic, i know i'm not... this is my way of expressing myself especially when i'm "REFLECTING" on myself....
i know few people can relate to me but these few people are the people that are WORTH keeping for a lifetime...
As for some people who looks like medusa or hunchback of notredame.... "your ugliness is far better than the unbearable stench of your stinky personality" peace out!!
Laugh... while you still can
laugh... you can never laugh that way again... be happy... enjoy life... be merry... shout for joy!! who knows, maybe tomorrow you're not laughing... who knows.. maybe tomorrow you are crying... life is so short... smile when you feel like smiling... grin when you feel funny.. smile when you're alone... it helps you to feel better... smile at yourself when you make clumsy mistakes...laugh hard at wacky moments.... be jolly... sometimes, funny memories come to our mind... laugh hard even when you're alone... it doens't make less of a human... smile at people who mock/make fun at you... they are more funny-looking than you .... laugh at your mistakes but learn from them... solve your problems with a smile... offer help with a big smile... flash your big smile at people who needs some comfort... in the end, smiling doesn't make you less of who you are.. it makes you more of a better person...
just a thought by this simple, straighforward, wacky and smiling person(as told by my friends)... peace out =)
something to ponder on
mga eye-openers at mga bagay na pwede nating magamit sa buhay natin..... eto yung pagkakaintindi ko..
"Ang dila ng tao'y kakaibang itak, habang ginagamit, lalong tumatalas"
- kaya minasan, nakakasakit tayo sa ating mga sinasabi..
"Ang nabubuhay sa pangarap, namamatay sa gutom"
- kung puro ka lang pangarap, wala ka talagang mararating..
"Habang basa pa ang nguso, naaalala ang pangako"
- habang buhay ka pa, alam mo yung mga plano mo at mga promise mo...
"Ang ugat ng kaalaman, mapait pa sa apdo, pero kung mamunga, matamis pa sa pulot-pukyutan"
- the truth hurts... pero kung tinaggap mo ng buong-buo, magiging mas mabuting tao ka..
"Madali ang maging tao, mahirap ang magpakatao"
- kailangan ko pa ba i-explain?
"Ang karapatan, kahit ilang beses niyurakan, ay karapatan pa rin"
- the saying speaks for itself..
"Ang nagpapakumbaba ay paparangalan; ang nagyayabang ay mapapahiya"
- best way is to stay humble... kaysa mapahiya ka sa kayabangan mo
"Ang may kasalanan ay laging nangungumpisal sa sarili"
- alam mo sa sarili mo kung may kasalanan ka...
"Kapag masakit ang biro, nagpaparugo ng puso"
- minsan kahit biro, nakakasakit pa rin...
"Ang masamang biro't bati ng katotong tanging-tangi, parang sugat na mahapdi, gumaling ma'y nagsasanhi"
- kapag nasaktan ka sa biro, kahit na lumipas na ang panahon, may bakas pa rin na natitira...
"Ang bakas ng karanasan ay tanda ng kaalaman"
- an experienced person knows best
"Sa alitan ng magkapatid ay huwag makisali; kapag sila'y nagkasundo, galit sa iyo'y mananatili"
- need i explain more?
a baby's smile
i find a baby's smile so comforting... may it be physically, in which it will also make you smile, or emotionally, in which you will feel a sense of comfort or happiness each time you see a baby smile.
i don't know why i feel happy each time i see a baby smile especially my nephew. it's like you get a piece of heaven or your burdens in life are being taken away. weird isn't it? but i tell you one thing... whatever feeling you have, when a baby smiles at you, you will surely forget it. that is the magic behind it. sometimes, i find myself smiling back to the baby, even though i don't even know him/her, when the baby smiles at me. i love the comfort and the undescribable feeling that you feel seeing those innocent little cute angels smiling. it's as if heaven has sent you a smile through them...
Death....
we live because we know we will die... death is the reason for us to live... because if we know that we won't die, we would not bother to do anything.... true... it is a fact...
death comes to us in two ways... unexpectedly or expectedly... it means that we may know ahead of time that we will die... or we die in a flash...
most of us would tell, i don't want to die slowly... i want it quick so that i won't have to suffer the agony and the pain... me?? well, call me a lunatic, i want it the opposite way... because i want to bid my love ones farewell before i die... i prefer leukemia or some sort unfortunate event that would give me enough time to bid all the people i know farewell... also, so that i would know that i will eventually die... i hate to hear people saying that they didn't have the chance to say "i love you" or "goodbye" or anything they want to say to their love ones... i hate it... i take pity on those situations... well, call me weird... but this topic just got into my mind.... weird isn't it?
i don't fear death.. i believe that if it's your time, it is relly your time to go... that's why i always make the most out of myself... i will just live my life as i know it.. my way to make it happy.. my way to make it fulfilling... my way to make it as memorable as possible... and my way to make the people say when i am gone, "i really miss kirk..." peace out!!
after the first term...
i'm glad i passed the first term with flying colors.. although i didn't really got the grade i desired which is a straight 4.0.... i am still satisfied with the grades i got... two 3.5(bibstud and aesthet) and five 4.0s(communication skills, history, filipino, pe, and general psychology) thanks to those who supported and believed i can do good and especially to God. i hope i would also do good in my second term.... peace out!!
a song that fits me..
beacuse i am the type of guy who doesn't show emotions when i like a girl... so i always end up getting hurt silently... i know it's my mistake for not telling the girl that i like her but sometimes, i just show it or let them feel it.. well, life is truly unfair.. on most occassions, i end up getting hurt and the girl doesn't even know... i guess it's my fault... for not telling.... so this song is a direct hit for me... and for people who loves silently... or for people who has a crush on somebody but doesn't let her know..
"OO"
‘Di mo lang alam
Naiiisip kita
Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako
‘Di mo lang alam
Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli
Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon
At ngayon ako'y iyong iniwan
Luhaan, sugatan, ‘di mapakinabangan
Sana nagtanong ka lang
Kung ‘di mo lang alam
Sana’y nagtanong ka lang
Kung ‘di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Hindi mo lang alam
Kay tagal na panahon
Ako’y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa’yo
Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya
‘Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta
Kung ako’y nagkasala patawad na sana
Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal
‘Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
O baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana’y ako naman
‘Di mo lang alam
Ika’y minamasdan
Sana’y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam
‘Di mo lang alam
Kahit tayo’y magkaibigan lang
Bumabalik ang lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan
Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Ako’y nandito lang
Hindi mo lang alam
Matalino ka naman
Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako’y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana’y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
‘Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
O baka sakali lang maisip mo naman
Puro s’ya na lang
Sana’y ako naman
‘Di mo lang alam
O, ika’y minamasdan
Sana iyo’y mamalayang di mo lang pala alam
Oooooooo
Malas mo
Ikaw ang natipuhan ko
Di mo lang alam
Ako’y iyong nasaktan
Monday, September 04, 2006
Forgiveness
a lot of us find it hard to forgive the person we hate... it's a common thing for most people... and the prime factor why they find it hard to forgive is because they are so "proud".. or in simpler terms, they use their pride...
it's natural for us humans to be proud but we have to limit it.. especially in times when the person who did something wrong is honestly sorry for what he/she has done... using your pride instead of forgiving the person will not benefit you at all... it's no good and it's a sin... a terrible sin... but most of all, it will hurt...
now, the reason why i wrote this blog is to open up the minds of those people who, if ever they read this blog, will learn how to forgive... i'll tell you what is it and why you should forgive....
what is forgiveness? i honestly found a very good answer to that.... here it goes... forgiveness is like the fragrance that flowers release after you have crushed it.. you understand it?? no?? well then here's a simple explanation... it's when you forget all the ugly things and accept the apology of the person even after you have suffered a lot from him and the bad memories keep bugging you... truly, it's very hard especially when your pride is telling you not to forgive the person... it's really hard to forgive especially when your mind is telling you, "why should i?? i suffered a lot and so should he/she." but once you overcome it, an undescribable pleasure comes out...
another thing is why should we forgive?? if you would base it on the bible, they bible said love your enemies and do not be like them who has only hatred inside their hearts (not exact words but somewhat like that...) yes it's true... hard again... but, we have to overcome that obstacle and the resistance to forgive....
my personal answer to why we should forgive is this... it's really hard to live a life wherein your heart is part filled with hatred and there's something in you that you know is not right... that's the "pride" in us that is useless... it's hard to overcome the overwhelming pride inside us especially when it is at its highest level... it's a fact that most of us will automatically choose pride over forgiveness without knowing... but if ever you read this blog, i hope that you think it over and you might/will forgive the person who did something wrong to you... just remember "a black and bitter heart will lead you nowhere".... "evil lingers in the hearts of those who doesn't know how to forgive" and my favorite, "you will never be happy or peaceful inside if you hold a grudge against somebody"...
Saturday, August 05, 2006
why MOST varsity players are synonymous to birdbrains
in ALMOST all schools, they see the varsity players as birdbrains.... why? because these people are good in athetics but they lack the more important thing which is acamedics.... why again?? i'll answer that... but before that, please exclude me from being a birdbrain because i am not... even though i am an athlete....
in my 4 years of being an athlete in my school, i was never a player that fails or passes but in a critical situation just like the common varsity that you see in your respective schools.... you may ask me what is the difference between them and me.... well, i can't answer that fully but i do have some good points... first, they lack this important thing which is called time management.... they give a lot of time in their sport but only a tiny portion on their studies.... another thing that is common to them is that they reason out that they are already tired because of the tiring practices and games... well for me, that is no excuse for being so lazy... that's why you called it extra-curricular activity because you have the option to continue your activity or stop it when you realize that your grades are declining... these two reasons are common to players who fail... unfortunately, some school help varsity players in their grades... and that's the reason why most of them don't study - thinking that they will pass even if they fail... sigh sigh sigh...... yeah they will pass but the effect will be on their future...
this is not a shout out for those varsity players who take their academic for granted.... remember, i was a varsity but never did i rely my studies on the hands... i really hate to hear that the varsity player is called stupid... they are not... they are just lazy people and the easy-go-lucky types....
Monday, July 24, 2006
one good,happy day...
me and my childhood friends(mark and may anne) met at the hyatt hotel in pasay and swam... mark and karl didn't swim but me and may together with his little brother did... all went fine.... never ending conversations and laughters.. as usual, we ate at the hotel, poolside. we ordered two pizzas and before we ate, there were some problems regarding the bill... it was too high... but after paying the discounted price... we ate... then it rained and then we decided to go to mall of asia...... strolling around and talking bout funny stuffs... window shopping and making funny things out of something... well, we ate at this fantastic japanese restaurant (again) hehehe. the names Tanabe and it was good, but man it was expensive.... like before when we ate at sakae sushi, it was also expensive... we were on the right spot because while we were eating, the fireworks display came off and we watched it as we ate... i recorded it on video and it was fantastic.... anyway... after that, we had desrt on cold mountain.... the ice cream shop where they crush,mash your ice cream in front of you... talking about first time experience... we luaghed and we laughed and we laughed.... after getting our ice creams, we tasted the five diffrent combination that we ordered.... mine was weirdest of all... it consists of boysenberries and ferrero... i don't know what kind of fruit the boysenberries are but man it was tart!!! anyway... after that, we were planning to go to seattle's best which is just on the ground floor(because we were on the 2nd floor) but we decided to go home because it is already late...
everytime we go out, we always up late in the evening and our parents don't even care whenever the four of us go out because we have been together for thirteen years... maybe they are somewhat secured and maybe, they trust us that we won't do anything foolish or stupid when we got out.... fyi, everytime we got out, the main purpose is to have good clean and sometimes, naughty fun!! naughty?? because we sometimes or always laugh at things that we see that is funny.... hey, talking about good clean fun.... hahahaha=)
Saturday, July 15, 2006
a day with my sister and brother....
well, my day day started fine... cool weather... had enough sleep and had coffee for breakfast...
11 o'clock, we were to meet at starbucks vito cruz( near la salle)... but then my mother decided that we should be sent off to starbuckjs by car and we shouldn't commute... well, we met up at 12:10 and started chatting... that feeling rrally gives up a feeling of comfort and i always enjoy the feeling of being with my sister when we go out.... maybe because we have some common interest and we also have the common things.... well, we started by going to the lrt station and taking a ride to doroteo jose... actually i don't know how to go to gateway mall by taking the lrt since it is the first time for me to go to gateway.... woohoo... exciting... then after arriving there, we went throught the tunnel and it was very new to me.... hehehe... then we took a ride (lrt 2; it is better than lrt 1) and we arrived at the place... it was such a relief when we arrived there safe... hehehe... nice way to start our fun... then we went to suarez, a shop that sells jewelries and we picked up a ring that was for my sister's husband... then we went resto searching and we ended up at italianis... scrumptuous food, but quite expensive or should i say expensive because it is not for the masses.... hehehe... then, we chatted.... after eating, we went window shopping for great clothes and we found some very good bargains... actually, my sister gave me this pair of jeans which is made of a fabric that is very silky... we bought it at folded and hung and it was very nice... hahaha... thanks to my sister because she gets to treat me with what i picked... thanks sis!!! anyway, you know the feeling when you go out with somebody that you haven't gone out with for a long time? that is the great feeling i had when we were at gateway with my sister.... it was such a great feeling and in the end, even though it was quite tiring, it was well all worth it.... it was fun to commute and go here and there... me and my brother even got to commute to other places just before we go home.... fun isn't it? yeah weel i would just like to share to you my wonderful day and hope that everyone of you would also have a wonderful day.... thanks to GOD and i hope i would have many of those days to come... ciao!!!
